Virgin

there’s such a sense of self aware devotion in the most resigned, bitter way here. my chest sinks in when listening to this one. the production of this track reminds me of sitting in the car underneath a long dark tunnel, just observing the way the dim lights flicker by. how dare lorde write such poignant words while her voice breaks throughout !!! “Oh, dark day Was I just someone to dominate? Worthy opponent, flint to my blade, now we're playing with shadows At the Sunset Tower, you said, "open your mouth" I did And what came spilling out that day was the truth If I'd had virginity, I would have given that too Why do we run to the ones we do? I don't belong to anyone, ooh Oh, dark day Was I just young blood to get on tape? 'Cause you dimed me out, when it got hard Uppercut to the throat, I was off guard Pure heroine, mistaken for featherweight But what came spilling out that day was the truth And once I could sing again, I swore I'd never let Let myself sing again for you, oh-whoa-oh Oh-whoa, oh-whoa-oh Sing it Said, "why do we run to the ones we do?" I don't belong to anyone, ooh I made you God 'cause it was all That I knew how to do But I don't belong to anyone (ooh) Am I ever gon' love again? Am I ever gon' love again? Am I ever gon' love again? (Ooh) Am I ever gon' love again? (Am I ever gonna love again? Tell it to the rock doves) Will you ever feel like a friend? (Sing it to the fountain) Am I ever gon' love again? 'Til you understand Tell it to him”