This song came from a really conflicted headspace. I was in a moment where I felt watched but not fully understood, like people had opinions about me, expectations on me, but no real idea of what I was carrying day to day. I was juggling ambition, pressure, family, and identity all at once, and this track is basically me thinking out loud while trying to stay composed.

A lot of the lyrics are about transformation. Not in a clean, inspirational way but in a messy, uncomfortable way. Going from one version of myself to another, sometimes by choice, sometimes out of survival. There’s pride in the growth, but also frustration, guilt, and numbness. I was working regular hours, trying to build something bigger in the background, feeling like I had to keep quiet and move smart instead of explaining myself to everyone.

When this song gets brought up everyone references the “goon to a villian to a goblin” line :) … that’s a little nod to lil Wayne’s “A Milli” really more of a personal outlook on my growth through moving away from home and chasing music. 

I had made the song in my old flat it only had about 3 stem layers of vocals, it eventually evolved and I took it to a studio session I was invited to with BrokenEnglishBeats & KaneZeroFive - Kane did his feature in a few minutes and it just felt right. Sent it over to my engineer and the rest is history.

When I listen back now, I hear someone trying to convince himself that the change is real. That the sacrifices mean something. That the pressure will eventually turn into progress. I don’t see the song as a flex or a confession. it’s more like a snapshot of a phase where I didn’t have everything figured out, but I refused to stop moving.