Rude
black + blue
i pictured this album as a movie and what great movie isnt accompanied by an amazing soundtrack. black n blue was the state i was in emotionally and maybe physically after doing a lot of falling for videos lol but i was bruised and still healing. I had a conversation between me and my dad about it and in fact that was one of the first times i had mention anything about my emotional state to him, so it's nice that it was also tied into this album pretty well.
to me
From the moment i finished this song in particular alot of feelings and doubt started casting my mind about people, if one apple is bad in a bag what makes the others good.
It was a childish mindset but i became a lil colder and distant for the rest of that year.
"You say you love me but that shits not new to me"
thief
but i was in something new and it felt like she stole my gaze, stole my attention and my heart.
not to say she did much with the things she stole but she took it and i didn't panic.
like that
my friends listened to this thing so much that they started hating cuz of how much I overplay it
I made this with my housemate after we started drinking one too many glasses of wine.
In fact she started humming the sample while the bassline was playing so that’s where i got the idea to sample it.
But yeah i was in my feelings thinking about her, playing her fav songs.
girl at the counter
I was walking with my friend just going to thrift some clothes and well what do you know. Theres a girl at the counter, infatuation filled my whole body but did i end up doing anything about it...nah i just kind of stared at her now and there until she came up behind me asked if i needed help. For a moment she breathed a little bit of life into me with just her looks and voice alone, i hadn't had a crush on someone in a while so it was refreshing to have that experience even if it was brief. And compared to the people i had been interacting with that year i think i was more curious about she was behind that counter.
i mean i made a whole song about it
tell me
My heart became a bit warmer, i loved someone again and that meant coming down from whatever state i was in and learn to be vulnerable to someone again. Telling them my insecurities, things i would only mutter under my breath, I wanted it to be a fresh start and not repeat the mistakes i made but i also didnt want their love to end without them telling me. The least im owed is honesty