Cry Baby (Deluxe Edition)

i discovered this song when i was in grade 7 (wow! it’s been a decade!!!) :—O i always listened to this album when i was in junior high school with my gay best friend. we cheered and sang along to this album. i will never forget the memories i made while growing up with this album ♡ ever since, i have been a crybaby with a little body and a big heart. i’m proud of that ⊹₊˚‧︵‿₊୨ᰔ୧₊‿︵‧˚₊⊹

the music video was so so creepy! i felt this song so much. in the photo, we're almost a perfect family. but behind the closed doors, you don't know how much abusive and short-tempered my family are. they are always mad at me if i always share about the abusive things they've done to us </3 melanie was right about this— "please don't let them look through the curtains" as they always said to me indirectly. gladly, i'm free for almost a year now. thank you, G! ⊹ ࣪ ˖

"kids are still depressed when you dressed them up." ⋆˚꩜｡the horror of being a crybaby ;—) even you showered your kid with love and material gifts, the kids are still depressed!! ...just like me when i was a teenager.

this is where the fun begins ⚞^. .^⚟ ooohhh i love being in a carousel! but not this kind of love. oohh honey, i’m glad you asked! back when i was in junior high school, i was so curious about love & relationships. i was never in a serious relationship because i’ve always been a player of feelings, and in the end, i was in a carousel love for almost 4 years with the boy i loved so much (yep, my whole teenage years, and the karma is real lol!) ^^ after that, we just played whenever he liked me that day or i liked him that day, but we ended things when i moved out of state for school. i wish i had made the right choices when i was a teen, but how dumb of me to think that i could do that? oh well, just some puppy love that i needed to experience while growing up 𑣲 what’s the connection to this song? oh yea, i used to listen to this while all of that was happening

i remember way back in high school that boys would usually correct me or bully me for being so pretty, only to end up being infatuated with me! lololol!! LIKE BOY, I DON’T NEED YOU AT ALL?!?!! this is my ultimate card, the boy-trasher song but make it cutesy ૮ ྀིᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀིა this was also the era when i loved melanie martinez!

while listening to more of this album, this one has more meaning for me. soap is the song of regret. we all do regretful things, even crybaby too. way back in high school, i’ve regretted so many things i’ve done and said, and maybe sometimes, i blamed myself for being so stubborn and selfish because of the things i said that ended up causing fights. if you really want to undo those things, you need to wash your mouth with soap. in my case, since i don’t want to be poisoned (haha!), i wash it with clear distilled water or eat some sweet candy to fill the gaps. it may sound too poppy or like edm, but i love the meaning of the song. i can relate ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹