Punisher

the number of songs you send someone when you’re in love and across the country is crazy when you’re a little depressed, and they won’t say they love you back, the number gets pretty absurd just one devastating song after the next trying to get through the strings of terribly massive feelings that you feel the need to throw up through someone else’s voice and words and story, someone who has a knack for articulating that horribly human feeling much better than you and this one, you said was especially devastating you said that line killed you “so we spent what was left of our serotonin/ to chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon” and all I could think about was how I was waiting for when “she knows she lived through it to get to this moment” felt like it rang true in my life it’s been 5 years since then, every fall I listen and wonder if this will be there year it feels true it hasn’t come